As most of my friends know, I am currently trying to finish my MA in English at the U of R. I took a year and a half off after I completed my BA to mull over the decision to go back and get my 2 year after-degree in Education to be a middle-years teacher or to go the Masters route. I finished my 6 classes relatively unscathed except for my class from hell. Let's just say that I would rather listen to Nickelback for 10 straight hours than read another fucking "witty" John Donne poem. But I digress... For the last year I have been trying to get my thesis proposal handed in. It has been one of the most frustrating things I have ever done. I feel like I've been running around in circles and not getting anywhere. I've read dozens and dozens of books and articles and have taken a few stabs at proposals but I am still aways away from being done. My topic is a bit out there for English, but I thought I could make it work but I'm having a bitch of a time getting it all sorted out. My general topic is how Jack Kerouac's
On the Road has influenced musical artists such as Bob Dylan, Tom Waits, Bruce Springsteen, R.E.M., The Doors, The Beatles, etc etc etc. However, every time I get an idea for a main thesis, my advisor tells me it's either too broad or too narrow for a 100 page thesis dissertation. Right now I should be working on another version of my proposal, but I have major writer's block that I can't seem to shake. In
OTR, Sal Paradise and Dean Moriarty are on an endless search for IT. For me, I think I will truly experience IT when I get my damn proposal accepted. It's been such a weird process, this thesis thing. If I take a class with 20 or so other people, I can always discuss what book we all are taking or talk about the last exam. At this level, my topic is so narrow that the only person I can really discuss it with is my advisor. It's a really isolating feeling sometimes. It's no wonder why some professors are so eccentric because after being holed up in your topic for so many years you are bound to go nutty! Anyways, I guess I've vented enough here. Now it's time to take another stab at what I should really be doing right now.
If this was a CD, this would be the hidden track... For fans only (well, a certain fan anyways...)
... Tomorrow is me and April's 5 month anniversary so for those who don't want to gag while reading some mushy stuff I am just warning you in advance that now is a good time to quit reading...
April... The last 5 or so months have been such a blast. I love you so much and I can't wait for the rest of our lives together. I can't wait to be done this Masters thing so we can go overseas for a year or two and come back and buy a house and get on with the next phase of our lives. You've made me happier than I could ever have imagined and I'm so glad we are officially living together now. You are definitely my better half. You let me be my goofy self at all times and you don't try to change me into some idealized version of a boyfriend in your head. You are the kindest and sweetest person I have ever met and I feel so incredibly lucky to be with you. I even accept the fact that you like err...umm... Nickelback...Ahem! Anyways, I love you honey, so Happy 5 Months.