a whole lotta blah

The past two weeks I've been adjusting to life post-Safeway, and I'm quite enjoying it. Now I'm wallowing in a sea of Jack Kerouac and Tom Waits lyrics. It's nice to be able to focus on school without having to stress out about paying rent and bills and not feeling like a puppet on Safeway's strings. It was definitely very weird and somewhat surreal walking out of the store for the final time in my uniform. Of course for my last shift they had to give me a closing office shift, but it was kind of nice training someone else to take my spot. I poked my head in the store a couple times since my last day and all I see are all these new, young faces. Safeway is definitely phasing out the experienced workers who actually know what they are doing in favor of highschool kids who make nothing and could give two shits about their job. Safeway got their bodies. There's that old adage that if you pay with peanuts then you get monkeys. Well, Safeway can have fun with their monkees now. Okay, enough venting about Safeway... Serenity now! It has been so nice these last couple weekends to actually feel like a normal citizen and enjoy a normal Sunday activity like Sunday brunch. I can't remember the last time I've been able to partake in the brunch experience. It may be a simple pleasure that lots of people take for granted, but I've been pretty hyped about it so far.

Things have been going fairly well in my other aspects of life. Although April and I had a pretty big fight last night, but we survived it relatively unscathed and I do believe it has made us stronger. Fighting can actually do some good sometimes. I think last night about a year's worth of minor and major pet peeves finally came to the surface and and we had quite the verbal bruhaha, but after the smoke all settled we both realized that we still do really love each other and that although our relationship may not be perfect, it is still pretty damn amazing most of the time and that it would be foolish to throw it away over a few odds and ends that easliy fixable. I have to thank Mark and Mr. Real for helping me with some good advice last night and helping me realize that I do have an amazing girlfriend that loves me to death. I wasn't in a very good frame of mind yesterday before the blowout and I was dwelling on all the negative aspects of our relationship and I was allowing my frustrations to override my better judgement. I think the fight had a cathartic effect on April and I. It's like a big weight has been lifted and April doesn't seem as stressed as she was and I feel a lot more relieved and happy with our whole situation. I have a renewed zest for making this IT with April. I really do feel like the luckiest guy in the world again. It is an amazing feeling that I hope everyone can experience at some point.