Back from the dead

I'm not sure if anyone bothers to check my blog anymore since I haven't posted anything since September, but I finally decided to get off my ass and post something for my devoted following. So this post goes out to all three of you. Your prayers have finally been answered. You now have a reason to surf the net once again. So what have I been doing for the last 5 months since my last post? Hmmmm. The main reason I haven't posted anything is that I really haven't felt like myself for most of that time. I was in a major funk for most of that and I finally now feel like I've gotten back to normal. As normal as I get anyways. Over the past year, pretty much since I finished school, I gradually got more and more down. I gave myself a month to find a "real" job, as they say. But I found out quickly that having a degree, or two for that matter, does not guarantee one a good job. I shot out lots of resumes for various positions but I wound up working at a call centre. Not exactly my dream job. So I gradually got stuck in a deep rut. I was really unhappy with my job and I was unhappy in my relationship. I took care of the relationship part and that provided some relief, but the job part really got me down in the dumps. Gradually I started losing interest in running and working out and writing and I was becoming lazy and lethargic. My days consisted of sleeping in as long as possible because I dreaded the fact of walking through the doors of the call centre. I would sludge my way through work, come home and crash on the couch, and be asleep by 10. Or else I would go to the other end of the spectrum and party like crazy because that was an easy way to not think about the day job. I would be out in public, but I wasn't really there. My body was there, but it was really just a shell. I was existing, I was breathing and I had a pulse, but I wasn't really LIVING. And in the process, I was shutting out a lot of my good friends. I am one of the luckiest people on the planet to have such an amazing group of good close friends, but I got to the point where I would almost cringe whenever I heard the phone ring. I tried to avoid human contact as much as I could. But for some reason I looked forward to Jan. 1 as a start of something new. It's hard to explain, but I just somehow sensed that things would be different somehow. Normally I've viewed New Years as just another day, as just another excuse to go out with a bunch of friends. But this year I saw that one day as a significant day. I'm not sure where it came from, but I decided to put my foot down and try to rise from the depths of my funk. And from that day I really have felt like I am turning over a new leaf. It's been gradual, but I have gotten most of the hop back in my step. I'm not quite there, but I'm close. And it feels great. I've started to strip things down to the basics and focus on the people who really mean a lot to me. So if anyone does actually read this... Mark, Zubazz, Chris, Kent, Shades, Ruda, Kash, Craig, Billy, Carina, etc, I just want to thank you guys for sticking around while I've gone through my ordeal. The one thing that got me through this funk is that I have the best friends in the world. I really do have a more positive outlook on life again. And I think it's starting to reflect now. I think that what you put into life is what you get back and I am now getting more opportunities. I had a job interview last week for a position as a Researcher and the job is now mine if I want it. It's contract work and it would mean I would have to toil away at my day job still, but at least it's a foot in the door to an industry I would love to be a part of. I also have another interview next week for another telephone job, but at least the money would be a lot more. I've also gone a couple old fashioned dates, so I have opportunities in the ladies department. And I've also started running and working out a lot more. Running is something I've always loved. It is my chance to listen to some tunes, get my heart racing, and just zone out. Running is so cleansing. It's not only great exercise, but I've gotten so many great ideas for song ideas and story ideas. So many times I have come up with some great lyric and melody ideas while running. So the JJ we all know and love is now back. Last year was definitely a year I would like to forget for the most part, but this will definitely be the year of the JJ. Look out. And mothers, lock up your daughters because JJ is on the loose. Wowza.