Contemplating Life...

Well, I'm in a big reflective mode right now. Next month I'm turning 29, and I''ve started wondering what I've accomplished and where I should be at this stage in life. In a year or less I will be done my Masters in English, so I won't be tied down to Regina any longer. I am hoping to go overseas to teach English for a year or so, but after that I have no clue where my life will take me. I'm not overly concerned with my career future, because I know I have some options ahead of me... either stay overseas and teach, get a gov't job as a speech writer, get into the Communications field, apply for my phd, etc... However, what I am more concerned about is the relationship part. I don't want to be some 40-year old creepy guy at the bar oogling the 20 year old chicks. I'm a Gemini, so I have some commitment issues, plus I love to flirt and keep options open, but at heart I am a big romantic I think. Maybe I'm too picky or something, but it seems like every girl I grow to really care about and want to start something quasi-serious with ends up not being a viable option... for a variety of reasons. In the last couple years, I feel I've really hit my stride in terms of self confidence and "mojo"... I think it's the fact that I've gotten older and that I don't really give a shit about impressing people when I go out. I just try to be myself and not come across as the eager beaver. So I've had the most attention from women in the last couple years than I've ever had...and I've definitely had my share of fun. But at the end of the day, I still crave that one real close relationship. I don't believe in fate or destiny or soul mates or that "one special someone"... But I do believe that there are a handful of people that you are compatible with. But it is SO hard to find one of these handful of people. It's like that movie Rules of Attraction... I like this girl who likes that guy who digs that girl etc etc etc.... Plus in today's world, a couple needs 2 incomes to survive... so that means both partners going to school and trying to get their individual shit straightened out before committing to anyone. I've met a small handful of really amazing women in the last few years that I have really gotten to like and would love to seriously date, but because of circumstances or bad timing or various other issues, things have never worked out. I have a rough idea in my mind of my "perfect woman", but it totally changes in reality when I meet certain women... I have been wildly attracted to wildy different women. I had a really great conversation with one of these women tonight and it really got me thinking. We're both roughly the same age, we're both attracted to each other, and we both want to get out of this cycle... but within a couple months, she'll be gone from Regina for good, so again another one slips away because of circumstances. Just as we get close, there's a dead end in sight. So the search continues...